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Sunday, March 21, 2010

jus came back from thailand...

so tired...
but this is the greatest holiday i have ever been in my 14yrs of life..
i will not tell what happen here...
if u are interested...
i will tell u in sch...[only for my friends]

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

birthday wishes....

i hope to celebrate my 14th bithday with the people who are important to me...
they are bernice[No.1 bestie], steffi[No.2 bestie], yvonne[No.2 sis], and tosca[No.3 sis].
i love them all...=.=

thinking of treating them to lunch on 7thApril.
even though my birthday is on the 8thApril...
but the next day have common test so better not treat them on the actual day...^^

i wonder what kind of present i will get this year...
(even though, i was thinking no one will buy me one... hahaha... nvm...^^)

[to my other friends: sry if i nvr treat u... coz i only have money to treat a few people only... so i am very sry, if i nvr treat u k? sry..><]

a few more hours to go...
then i will be off to thailand...

however...
i dun know whether i should be excited or stressed up???

i still have unfinished homework to be done...
and i am only left with one day to finish all of it up...
after i come back from my trip to thailand...
stress???
i think so...=.=

but that trip to thailand allows me to finally relax myself...
as i dun want to stay at home all day long...
studying like hell...
so i think it is a good may out...
take a good rest once in a while is also good for me...

hey guys...
should i be stressed up or excited???
i seriously dun know...
i am confused...

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

to continue the pervious post...

sry... jus breaking off like that...
got to get to sch already...
i was late...
hee..^^

anyway, back to the main point...
i was feeling horrible and everything...
even though i m feeling much better now...

i jus hope that my mother will scold me less often...
i really hope...

or...
i will be very stress up...
i hope....

[to anyone reading this post: hey guys! dun worry... i feeling much better... it is jus that i am feeling a bit depress thats all... dun worry k? love u, guys!!! ^^]

Monday, March 15, 2010

sad story..

a few days ago...
i cried...

my mother scolded me...
coz of my studies...

she says that she is very happy that i am so focus on my studies...
but she doesn't want me to study till late night...
she wants me to have enough sleep...

i know that she scolds me for my own good...
but doesn't she know that she will hurt me more when she scolds me...
i will feel horrible after that...

Thursday, March 11, 2010

jealous or happy???

today, i went out with some of my clessmates and my third sister's boyfriend to catch a movie at orchard...

there were two couples..........
i dun know what to say next but...
i know that i felt a bit jealous when i was with them...

they let me remembered the times i spend with my previous boyfriends...
the times we were together...
the memories were unforgettable...
but i have to forget them all...
coz that is the only way to fulfill the promise i made to my friends and my parents...

i can't afford to let my parents feel disappointted and angry with me anymore...
or i will lose all their trust and hope they still got for me...
i dun want to let my parents to think that i am still a rotten apple...
and i dun want to break the promise i made to my friends again...
this time... i have made up my mind to keep the promise...

back to the main point...
i felt a bit of regret after going out with them...
i thought it will be fun or something...
but it was not fun at all...
i think that next time...
if there is a couple going...
i will not go anymore...

but i still feel happy for my third sister...
she has such a great boyfriend...
he is very sweet guy...
i hope he can last long with my sister...

[hey no offence to anyone hor... i am jus sharing my feelings only... if i hurt anyone's feeling... i say first: i am Sorry...]

what are my feelings???
...
not sure...
dun know...
or can i say that i dun want to know...

as sometimes... i feel very happy...
however...
sometimes... i feel very sad and lonely...

i could change my mood very fast...
i could be very happy for a few minutes...
and then a few minutes later i will feel very sad and lonely...

tell u guys a little secret k?
i always cry in the night when i am alone...
i dun know why i will do that but tears just will roll down m eyes every single night...
i dun know is it that i am feeling lonely or something...
or it is just one of my stupid habits...
i dun know...

may be i just need someone to talk to or something...
i hope i could find the source to let out everything inside me...
and by then... i will be fine...
[bernice: i know that i can come to u when i am feeling sad and lonely but just somethings are best not to tell... but keep it to myself... i hope this post will not hurt ur feelings... if it did, i am sry...]

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