i think i must be MAD!
am i so hungry for sth that i tried so hard to
resist???
trying so hard...
but...
in the end...
it is still a ZERO!
i am sick and tired of myself...
what the hell am i thinking???
my mind tells me that i cannot have it...
but...
my body say that i got to have it...
i really need to wake up from this stupid dream...
what my parents said to me...
are right...
i am still thinking about it...
i never did really forget about it...
but i really tried stop thinking about it...
i think...
maybe...
i still need a little more time...
ok!
this is my goal:
In 1years time, i need to forget totally about this stuff...
and really start it out new...
now i only half way through it...
jus half way through...
ok!
i will stop now...
i dun know what to continue writing...
cya!^^